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I had been blogging everyday since Monday. What an achievement. But then again, doing what I should be doing isn't done at all. Basically, I'm still screwed. There's the Talkback Classroom Application to complete, with a lot of comments to edit this and that. You had always been like that, since my scripting days, haven't you? Ugh. Trying to change my style of writing and all. I honestly hate it when some people are like that. No wait, using the word hate is far too kind. I abhor it when people try to get in my way of being me. Then again, that's life isn't it? *****I really hope Twinnie can recover from the pain, as soon as possible. Nobody deserve such unhappiness. But then again, that's life. Stay strong Twin. 0 had seen the show | ticket please? Wednesday, 25 November 2009 Honouring the Moonwalk./16:09 Look what I stumbled upon while doing research on pointe shoes for Niexster. For more, click here. I really like her green tutu, and how she took her love for ballet to dance her heart out to a modern tune, and definitely made it her own. I admire the girl's spunk for daring to do moves like that! Bravo! And those nasty critique about her, are just plain..nasty. And pointless. By the way, at 2:11, you'll get what I mean by the title. (: Enjoy! While it's back to my assignment for me. And there's the dilemma of choosing a nice profile photo of me which looks normal yet edgy at the same time. Come on, it's not wrong that I want to stand out from the other student writers at Niexster. ;) 0 had seen the show | ticket please? Tuesday, 24 November 2009 ♥/22:42 She's my darling, she's a dear, she's my awesomeness, she's my listening ear. She's my memory keeper, she's the faithful messenger, she's a great supporter, she knows I can depend on her. She's caring, she's kind, she's loving, she's mine. She's my crazy, wacky but beautiful LSP. ♥ She's none other than the ah-mazing Carolyn Teh Cai Ling, or my sayang. Who else would squeal my name out loud along the corridors at Omega on a Friday afternoon without caring what tons of students will think of her? Who else would call me back straight away right after an urgent text or a few missed calls? Who else would try to make things right, and shower me with the nicest words ever possible? Who else would accept that relationship status in Facebook? And who else would totally dare to pull off 'LSP stunts' with me in PUBLIC? Of course, we tried to cover up for what we did, but we know we had some stares from the security guards at Omega and there's even this uncle who was commenting on our behaviour, in a cheeky manner. Ugh. But oh well, still pretty awesome shit we did then. XD I miss those late night conversations we had. Even if the line gets cut off once in awhile, which is totally annoying. I miss the times when I can see you at Omega before/after class, even it's just for a short while to catch up with our lives. I miss your hugs, they never fail to make me feel a while lot better. I even miss you saying, "Uhuh." Because you're the only one who says it so many times in a single conversation. XD Basically, this post is to wish this awesome girlfriend of mine, HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY! I don't know whether you'll be reading this, but of course, it's all the best for your SPM, and you're so close to freedom. There's more after one more year, when you're 18. Heh. You're too nice, which gets you into a whole lot of trouble sometimes. But you're strong in picking yourself back up again. (: So much to say, but so hard to put in words. Before the end of this day, the 24th of November 2009, this entry shall be published, and it's also a post to express my sincerest thank yous to this girl, who is a huge factor in making this life of mine awesomeness. I heart Cai Ling super duper lots, whoever messes with her, messes with me. ;) 11th July 2009, 12:08AM. ♥ 0 had seen the show | ticket please? Monday, 23 November 2009 Career Dilemma./16:46 "Photography and fashion works the same way. You might miss the perfect photograph within seconds, and fashion has its own time and era. It's either you're in or out, now or never." -my little camera, ©gottabeagga- No matter what career I choose in the future, nobody or nothing is ever going to make me hate my interests. Something that Lyn said is right. I might just hate photography/writing/fashion/art/etc. when its a job instead of a hobby. I won't deny that. Even mumsie said that even I get to do something I love, I might just get bored of it. But! There's something called taking risks. It's not exactly my fault that I don't have a normal ambition to be a doctor, lawyer, accountant, or an engineer okay. I just don't want to be like everyone else. I conformed just to fit in the last time, only to realise it's a big mistake to not be myself for all these years. I'm trying to make up for my past mistakes, as an apology to the inner me for faking a lot of me all this while. And besides, I'm not as hardworking nor motivated as my classmates, who might not be my classmates next year as there's a possibility that I might be streamed into 5SC2, to get the best grades, memorise facts till you get all flustered up and bark at random people who get into your way of attaining the top positions in class. (To classmates who are reading this, I am not directing this at anyone in particular, so don't sue me if this offends you.) Please, I barely passed Add Maths and I'm quite sure something similar might happen for Accounts. And yes people, I failed my Add Maths. I got a 39. I'm not exaggerating, nor being paranoid like the usual me the last time. I believe I'm smart. Everyone is, in fact. It's just how you use that brain of yours, and your attitude in life, that makes you smart or stupid. Too bad, my attitude sucks. (: 2 had seen the show | ticket please? Last Week of Freedom./10:40 Last week of freedom. And yes, literally I mean it. It doesn't matter that hols are till the 3rd of January 2010, because.. Tuition is starting for me from next month onwards. This is the life. NOT. And I know it's for my own sake, but mumsie had been asking me to get started on Add Maths, Maths and Accounts since..last week? Seriously, I know I suck big time in these subs, for they require loads of practice, something which I can never do with my horrible time organisation. And..I just have no affinity with numbers. I like words better than numbers. Okay, excluding the show Numb3rs, that's a different story. Normally, students in Malaysia study because they have a goal or goals to work for. It's either: (a) Getting excellent grades. (b) Scholarships in the future. (c) Attaining the top positions in class. (d) To become the teacher's pet. (e) For the sake of studying. (f) To not disappoint their family members. (g) To not lose their own 'face' or their parents' 'faces' while competing with family friends/relatives. (h) *insert 1001 reasons here.* Okay, so this blogger here is seriously not motivated to do any of that, even I must admit, some of them are obligations that I chose to do since..centuries ago. But it's never constant motivation, so I'm basically screwed. Heck, I don't even know what career I want to delve in when I'm done with school life, quoting my previous school counselor, Puan Rafeah, "You have interests in many working fields, and you don't have a specific inclination to any of them. You are going to have a hard time selecting your future career, but you have higher scores in the Arts and Science columns. Logical thinking would do you well in science-related careers, and your foundation in piano and drawing would help you in art-related fields." "Whatever you choose to do after your SPM, I wish you all the best." This was a conversation that had taken place in the counselling room when I was a second former. And yes, I still cannot forget. But Puan Rafeah is very supportive of me, and I'm thankful for that. Still..if I don't even have a fixed ambition to strive for, I can't even be bothered to study wholeheartedly. Mumsie and Dad had been offering me suggestions on what to do or what to be just to help me get motivated. And their suggestions of courses and career options are as of the following: Actuarial Science. Interior Designing. Computer Programming. Linguist. Forensic Science. Marry a rich guy, and just be a tai-tai. (rich wife?) Okay, 1 is definitely out. I can't even do simple Math, what more Add Math which is a required subject in 1, apparently. 2, I'm not so sure about that. I have on and off interests in this. I mean, I like interior designs and stuff, but I'm not into it 110%. I think they suggested 3 just because I'm such a computer junkie. 4, possible. But..never mind. Forensic Science is wickedly awesome. I'm just afraid I might do injustice to those who had passed on by messing up on something. Don't want them to haunt me, for I have no ill intentions. :x And 6 is just..ridiculous. =.= My career choices are just unrealistic in this country called Malaysia. So, any suggestions readers? Other than photography, fashion designing, theater work, joining an orchestra, entering ANTM Cycle 123 and being a full-time blogger? :D 2 had seen the show | ticket please? Thursday, 19 November 2009 Result!/22:21 So, the result from what I had been doing for the past three days or so under the patient guidance of Anith Farhana and her wonderful laptop + drawing board + pen combination, and squabbling with Ezyan over who should be using the laptop first with Liyana laughing at us at certain intervals. Sakura from Tsubasa Chronicles. Okay, so it's considered pretty incomplete 'cos there's no background, but oh well. I need to try and fiddle with Adobe Photoshop CS4 some more before I attempt to experiment on this darling. Heheh. For Anith's version, you can check it out here. It's a beauty, I can tell you that. A big thank you to Anith, for being so patient, and for letting me copy her Photoshop CS4 into my pendrive, hence me using it to colour more line-art now! :D Problem is, the smudge tool doesn't give me the desired effect as I want it to be, like how it turned out in school. Therefore, I'm bringing this up tomorrow for the expert Anith to help me see what's wrong. (: 3 had seen the show | ticket please? Wednesday, 18 November 2009 The Art of Expression./23:47 "You can really tell a lot about a person through their drawings." © Anna Sabrina. With regards to the above quote from my darling pianist and karaoke partner, Anna dear, it struck me there and then how true the above statement is, and that proves how much I had lost touch with my dying passion and interest for drawing, painting, and just art. I had been slowly taking up the art again, of trying to have the pencil love my hand, and create another channel of expressing oneself. And the artistic friends have been helping me a lot with this. There's always a "Go, Leonie!" from Azri every time I start about trying to pick up drawing again, which is very reassuring and stressing at the same time. Hey, we are talking about the artistic people in school, okay. They're way better than me, and definitely one thing about them that you can't miss. They're really dedicated into their artwork, and are passionate about it as a way of channeling their creativity. It's also a refuge when they're feeling down or upset, maybe when they're experiencing frustration as well. And there's Anith who had been teaching me what she knows about colouring on Photoshop CS4. We had been bonding a lot these few days. Kind of hope that we can be in the same class next year, no matter what class that is. I'll need her, especially during classes for all the Science subs! And there's the drawing board and the pen which is pure awesomeness. x] Ezyan has been telling me how much she hates me because the Sakura line-art that I had been colouring for the past two days looks awesome. Haha. She flatters me. It's not even done yet. I'm left with the gems on her dress, the dress itself, and her eyes. Can't bear to creep Sue out any longer. Heh. But Anith and I definitely agree when we say that we always colour the eyes last. ;) So, definitely no regrets to not skip school for this week so far. And have no intention of doing so till Friday. It's the final moments I get to spend with my friends doing what we do best and love, as quite a number are moving next year. Sigh. Not forgetting SPM as well. Oh well, it's really time to work real hard for the exams. No kidding about that SPM cert, I know that. And I don't need no reminding. *****Anna is really sweet to give me the Catalog magazine she got for me in Singapore. It's total love. Ah, that girl understands my heart is one with fashion and photography. Glad that things went well. And it's the fashion industry. Really can't expect nice comments from them lecturers. Unless you're the next Michael Kors, Chanel, Ralph Lauren, and such. Quoting Heidi Klum, "In fashion one day you're in, and the next day you're out." And such is the cruel side of the fashion industry. *****Abiin and Kamalia were in school today. Abiin is taller and more muscular now! Not forgetting that she's chubbier too! x] Kamalia is still Kamalia. (: Though I'm disappointed that I didn't get my kiss on the cheek from her! Aha, soon I hope. *****I actually personally hope that one of my artistic friend is okay. I'm actually worried for her. Very. Seeings her drawings just make me feel really sad for her. Like Anna, we just can't bear to see the pain she's going through. All portrayed through her drawings. Bless her please. 0 had seen the show | ticket please?
You don’t deserve a point of view; if the only thing you see is you.